Sunday, February 24, 2013

It Was Time

As many of you know, we took Copper in to be put down last week. A difficult decision. A difficult time. But we both have no doubt that it was time.  We had both promised Copper that we'd keep him around until his quality of life was diminished... not a moment before then. He had a really bad night... one that made us both think we'd lose him by morning. But then he woke up and seemed back to his old self.  A couple weeks later he was starting to show more and more signs of slowing down and by last weekend, he pretty much only wanted to sleep. By Monday, well, as much as he wanted to stick around just a little longer, he seemed ready to go... and we knew it was time.

They let Copper rest his head on my lap as he passed. It was so fast... and painless. In fact, when it was over his eyes seemed a little brighter and the coloring in his hair had a glorious shine. He was beautiful. And he was at peace... probably already running in the green fields with his beautiful sister, Macy.

Copper came to us from the Wyoming countryside. Richard found him while working in Jackson Hole on the Four Seasons Resort. He was a perfect match for our family and we're better people and beagle parents for having had him in our lives. He loved long walks, treats at 7PM, wrestling with his sisters, playing with toys, and barking at the door when he'd see Papa come home from work.  Our home is noticeably quieter at treat time...

We miss his bark. We miss the way he'd wiggle his bum and talk to us when he'd greet us at the door.  We miss his love for meal time. We miss his snoring. We miss him.


 Copper with his sister Macy

 Copper at the Vet

Copper sleeping with his baby sister Dora

Thanksgiving Day 2012

Copper loved being in the front yard

Many thanks to Dr. Carpenter and the wonderful staff at Cottonwood Animal Hospital.  They've worked with Copper for many years and we're so thankful for all of their love and support these last few weeks. 

Friday, February 1, 2013

I Will Wait

 
I Will Wait by Mumford & Sons

I heard this song on the radio the other day and I fell in love with it.  Honestly, I'm not sure how this group has managed to stay off my radar for so long. They're pretty amazing and they happened to come along at just the right time for me. Funny how music can take on a different meaning to you depending on where you are at or what you are doing in your life.   
 
Well, as soon as it started to play my thoughts immediately turned to my father.  He's a good man... and I love him. But more recently I've started to sing it to Copper these last couple days as is health has diminished and the cancer throughout his body has started to take over... *heavy sigh*  He's still hanging on, though... and being torn between letting him die on his own terms or taking him to the vet to be put down, this song seems to bring me comfort for some reason. Maybe it brings him peace, too. At least he doesn't seem to mind my off-key melody and often made up words when I forget the lyrics. That's a dog for you... always forgiving.



Regardless, give it a listen. 


And I came home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun

And I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So break my step
And relent
You forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some way
Shake the excess

But I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
That tethered mind free from the lies

But I'll kneel down
Wait for now
I'll kneel down
Know my ground

Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Keep my heart slow

Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

Much love... Sabrina.