I Will Wait by Mumford & Sons
I heard this song on the radio the other day and I fell in love with it. Honestly, I'm not sure how this group has managed to stay off my radar for so long. They're pretty amazing and they happened to come along at just the right time for me. Funny how music can take on a different meaning to you depending on where you are at or what you are doing in your life.
Well, as soon as it started to play my thoughts immediately turned to my father. He's a good man... and I love him. But more recently I've started to sing it to Copper these last couple days as is health has diminished and the cancer throughout his body has started to take over... *heavy sigh* He's still hanging on, though... and being torn between letting him die on his own terms or taking him to the vet to be put down, this song seems to bring me comfort for some reason. Maybe it brings him peace, too. At least he doesn't seem to mind my off-key melody and often made up words when I forget the lyrics. That's a dog for you... always forgiving.
Regardless, give it a listen.
And I came
home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun
And I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
So break my step
And relent
You forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some way
Shake the excess
But I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
So I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
That tethered mind free from the lies
But I'll kneel down
Wait for now
I'll kneel down
Know my ground
Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Keep my heart slow
Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun
And I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
So break my step
And relent
You forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some way
Shake the excess
But I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
So I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
That tethered mind free from the lies
But I'll kneel down
Wait for now
I'll kneel down
Know my ground
Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Keep my heart slow
Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
Much love... Sabrina.
4 comments:
I am crying as I write this. You know I just went through pretty much the exact same thing and if I can give you any advice it would be to take Copper to the vet and... I can't say it.
Of course I'm not with Copper right now, I only know how it was with Stuart. On his last day it was very clear it was his last day. In the middle of the night before Mick and I couldn't sleep and I said "I think tomorrow is the day and he said "I think it is too." And it was. There was nothing of Stuart left on that last day and hanging out with him while we waited for the vet that afternoon was excruciating and yet comforting because we both knew he'd soon be out of pain.
But of course this is a very personal decision and there is no wrong way to handle it. When we lost our first dog, Kramer, the vet said "Remember, there is no wrong decision." That was the most comforting thing she could say.
Hugs to you, Richard, Copper, Dora, and Bob. I wish this wasn't happening.
I'm also crying while I write this because it brings back every furry baby I've said goodbye to. It's never easy. Nothing makes it better.
Perhaps you can ask your vet if they do euthanasia house calls, and if they don't, do they know anyone who does. I live in rural upstate and there is one vet who makes house calls within 30 miles. I've never done it at home, but after the last time I would pay anything to skip going to the vet's office.
Some pets are able to let us know when it's time, while others need permission to let go. I've whispered permission to let go a few times. They love with everything they have, and will hang on for us. I tell them that their friends, my other deceased babies, are there waiting for them.
Keeping you guys in my thoughts and prayers. FGBVS & XOXO.
I'm sorry Sabrina. Our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.
Oh sweetie. One of my favorite songs, and a beautiful way to comfort all of you. Hugs and love from all of us.
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